I Don't Get it..

(this song playin on my blog is called Hide & Seek by Imogen Heap..)

sighs..... i dont even know where to begin............................
if u've been readin my blog, u may remember me postin a piece on my cousin in New Zealand, Hannah who had a tumor in her brain... well like i said, she has been goin for Radiation n chemo n all tat jazz, n the whole family has been prayin for her continuously la....

well she finished her radiation and chemo bout 3-4 weeks ago i think n they finally did the scan today.... n.. yeah... we just found out tat the cancer in her brain has spread........
n the doctors have pretty much estimated her time left............... :( not gonna say how long, but i just dont get it la...

she's only just turned 18 a few months ago.. n she had received a scholarship to study....

now they cant do anything anymore.. they cud never operate, its too deep in the brain n wud be fatal.. but now she's dying.... sigh.. wat do i say now??

and oh yes..... a few years ago, my uncle was diagnosed wit Lung cancer, n he doesn't even smoke, but he worked as a contractor at a cement factory n apparently all the dust aggravated it la.. but he had surgeries n treatments done, n he came out of it.. so he was doin fine these couple of years, he takes very good care of himself, takes medicine n has check-ups often..

but a few weeks ago, he started feelin sick n had to be admitted in the Intensive Care Unit n after the doctors did scans apparently the cancer had come back n this time it spread to his heart n they pretty much cant do anything anymore.......................................................

i dont get this either............. wat the heck man? he had regular check ups!! are u tellin me tat the doctors didnt see this coming?? were they negligent???? sigh... i dont get it la..

all we can still do is continue to support and pray.. and i ask of you to please pray for them too.. please continue to pray for Hannah & my uncle David..... we need all the prayers we can get...

its times like these tat some ppl start to question God n why he's lettin this happen.. well.. i dont get why this is happenin, n do i think its unfair? YES i DO think it is... but, i know that my God is an Awesome God... n he has a plan.... perhaps its to bind our whole family together n to make us realize to not take our lives or each other for granted as we always do.... i dunno..i dunno his plan....... wtv it is, i dont know why God is doing this, but all i know is that he is definately puttin this family thru this because he knows tat we'll get thru it... n we also know tat he'll never let us walk alone, God will take us thru it...........
pardon me for the morbid post.. but i think it is neccesary... please pray.. n never lose faith...

*BUNNY*