Tainted Love

Dictionary.com defines the word 'tainted' as:
1.To affect with or as if with a disease.
2.To affect with decay or putrefaction; spoil.
3.To corrupt morally.
4.To affect with a tinge of something reprehensible.

i reckon they got it rite.......... dont worry nothin bad happened between me & Icky, we're as cool as ever! but i've just been thinkin of this for quite a while la..

when we first started goin out waay back then, he gave me a 'love' pendant (pic above) n he had one too, n it was special.. it was a symbol for 'us!' it was worn by ONLY the BOTH of us and NO ONE else.... it was something small but yet so meaning full..

he wore it everyday, i did almost everyday, i did so whenever i could.. i know this may sound stupid but its just tat whenever i felt far or missed him, id touch tat chain n id know tat he was wit me.... it was just.. sacred.. n we wore it loud n proud!

but then now... its all changed! ever since i saw tat pic of 'her' wit the same pendant around her neck i flipped! i know it was last year n wtv la, but i dunno........ its just different now.. it no longer means anything to me.. i felt like this necklace now symbolizes 'just another....' n i feel like if i were to wear it, it just doesnt feel rite... i feel like i have sumthin weird n gross aroud my neck.. how can i wear something tat i dont even believe in anymore???? dictionary.com is rite.. i feel like it has been corrupted.. decayed, spoilt... unpure...diseased....

its not tat i dont believe in our love or wtv, i do... but i just feel like a hypocrite to wear tat necklace.. its become... tainted.... in my eyes... it no longer means anything to me...yes, call me dramatic la, but it is my TAINTED LOVE..... neither does the necklace wit our faces on it (he also has one, he made it for our 1st anniversary!) n although, its a sweet necklace, tat TOO was 'just another............'tat she also was given.. hmm... i dont really wanna say more la i guess.. i just needed to get this out..........

im sorry Mal, im dont mean to cause any probs wit this, we talked bout it b4... i just felt like i needed to express it....you know tat our love is stronger than ever this year, n im enjoyin every minute of bein ur lady! i guess were just gonna look for a new necklace to symbolize 'Ickelsey' huh? Thomas Sabo perhaps????? hehehehehehehehe ;p love you!

*BUNNY*