CRIKEY!!

Crikey! Here's to 2009 and my 20000 blog hits!! Thanks for reading, guys!

*Bar Savanh*

So far, this has been looking like a really good year!

I've been far too busy as well as LAZY to update my blog, sorry guys.. was plannin on taking a break for a while..

Been havin so much fun, wat with entertaining ppl, random trips to Genting, a crazy but great day in Singapore... nites out.. and some food as well! :) all of this has been fun fun fun!*Cable Car**Queing for the Space Drop thingy!*

Singapore!!!

*Cute otters!**Sheila's and a roo!**Crikey!**Clark Quay*

So yes, busy busy busy busy! but FUN!!!!!

i do enjoy entertainin this crazy cousin of mine with accents! its quite fun actually, n calms her down n makes time pass quickly! only downside of it, is that ppl will tend to think that we're lunatics... which is just completely stupid of course, coz im perfectly sane, whereas she is.............. well let's just say tat we're all worried about her!

HAHAHA n yes, I will be expecting a pinch from her for telling the truth to the public! ahhahah

*BUNNY*

Pooper!

So this week i found out that Pooper is a girl! haha imagine that? i think i should have known as it kept going towards the shoes.. ;)

on another note, this week has been somewhat uneventful, until last night! I've been wanting to get a new phone, but I wasn't making a big deal out of it la, figured I'd look around till Dec. But yesterday my loony parents woke me up from deep sleep, n my mom was showin me her winning comic strip in this contest she joined.

It was all framed up, n they both were smiling. Im thinkin (all grumpy) why these ppl crazy ah?? n then they asked me to come to their room. So i drag my bum out of bed, still stoned n ta-da!! My mom was holding a Sony Ericsson box in her hands n few seconds later i realized there was a phone in there!!

Haha! she won the phone from the contest n gave it to me!!! :D:D i was like 'whoooaaaahhhhhh!!!' so yeah, am really happy now, n plus, its actually a really awesome phone! i'd never wanted a SE, coz Im a Samsung loyal fan, but after playing around with it, Have to admit that it's pretty cool! :) thanks mom!

* W9010i*

Also, I've just come to realize how much God has been blessing me lately. Praise God and all that he does! i know this is corny, but I desperately didnt want to eat rice n curry @ grandma's tonite, was so so dreading it, n on the way there, I prayed that she made something else, n true enuf, she made mihun! :) oh thank you so much God!

Blessing me with a new phone- I feel good coz then my parents can spend that money on sumn else, and I didnt have to suffer with a dinner I was dreading. Also, I cant wait till Feb! Parents n Kris n I are going to Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam!! :) should be fun!

I miss her so much, it doesnt likely that I'll be going to Melbourne anytime soon, as tickets cost RM3000.. :( but she's comin back after Xmas! cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait!!!!!!!!!

This is from ANTM Cycle11 - Samantha. i love her shots! and I really need to learn up this pose!

*BUNNY*

We Ate, Ate, Ate

Mmmmm now tats the feeling of satisfaction! Yesterday, we had this real big do at my grandma's house for my Aunt from New Zealand, Hemachi, n the a LOAD of family was there along with a HUGE TRUCKFULL of food! I swear!

ok well maybe not a literall truck, but ud need a van to carry all tat food! phew!! it was awesome possum man!!

I mean, I absolutely LOVE family gatherings, all my crazy aunts, uncles, cousins, all come together n we go crackers together! lol! its always me running around, gettin the food there on the table, helping out, helpin wit drinks, n anything I can. N its saying hi n catching up wit relatives n all tat jazz.. always fun! then lets come to the food.

ZOMG! there was just tons la, im not even kidding! There was:

*Best Pork Ribs ever!**Chicken & Pork Devil's Curry*

* The entire works!!! FEAST!!*

-of course my favourite Pork Ribs (hehe Kris!!) tat we always beg my aunt to make, rice, putu mayam, sodhi, chicken, mutton, devil's curry chicken& pork, beans, mamak mee, mihun, lasagna...........

* Deserts*

-i made bread pudding, n there was coconut cake, kuih, kesari, grapes.......

oh seriously it was a FEAST i tell U! I started eating from like 8, n only finish at almost 9! haha had a few helpings n by the end of the night, I was realllyyyy STUFFED to the brim!

all of the aunts were in the hall n all of us were sitting there like beached whales, with the look of over-eating n satisfaction on our faces from all tat food! haha! n the uncles were outside, drinkin n I was popping grapes into their whiskies! hahahhaha! :P all the food+alcohol+merriments= Bliss in this family! :)

So all in all, a great nite, think my aunt needed so see that we're all here for her.... Wish Uncle Roydon was here too, but he went back already.. we spent such a good time together on Friday morning n afternoon.. Met them n the other school kids, n took them round KLCC, Pavillion, Bukit Bintang n Sungei Wang, so tat was really nice..

I really need to go to New Zealand for Christmas la.. I really want to.. god I miss Hannah so much.. she wud have loved being here.

n Kris- I really was missing you terribly yesterday, wished u were there, n so this photos r for u! come back sooooonnnn!!!!!

*BUNNY*

ahhh

U know I was gonna talk alot about things these past few days.. but I just feel so uninspired to do so, know why? oh coz my dad n I just had a huge fight to which he now says no more shoots. watever man. i dont even get it. im so so sick of all this nonsense, i cant stand it anymore la.

ugh. n the day was great too, he just had to ruin it. Its non stop mid-life crisis.

anyhow- im SEVERELY and TERRIBLY addicted to House music now.. cant stop listenin to it!!!



Yesterday I did the Fashion Flirt Show at The Attic in Bangsar n we did it for Shoes, Shoes, Shoes & Sew and Soul! :)

there were 4 other models n Jai & Fiqa were among them. we got 3 pairs of shoes n bags, so it was quick changes for the Shoes3 show. then it was the Sew and Soul show! it was the first show tat I had to change n boyyyyy it was rush rush rush! :) loved it! :)



oh the sucky thing was tat the event was delayed like, 2 1/2 hours coz it was Raya2 n rainin so not many ppl showed up at the designated time. ugh. hate waiting. but it ended up being fun n it was over too soon! aishh..


and then today I did a shoot with Trisha! :) it was for her assignment for Photography class. so we did 2 concepts! n they were both so so COOL!!!!!!!!

1st- she painted a spectrum on my face! :) it looked like I was crying out a rainbow, n we shot it at my pool coz of the blue background n damn its cool! :)

2nd- she did this pretty design on my left eye with liner n blue shadow n it looked soo good! we shot against the plants and its real noce la so cant wait to see it! :)

at least few things in my day went well.. ugh. im so tired now...

*BUNNY*

Singapore's F1 Night Race!!

wow-wow-wow!!
now this weekend was a blast! i mean tat for the ear drums n for the eyes! ahh I cud go on n on, but Im too lazy, so just gonna keep it simple.


We drove down to S'pore, only took us 4 hours, and straight had lunch(dim sum!) n got to the hotel - Pan Pacific Marina Bay which is right next to the track! :)


If ya'll still have not heard, Singapore hosted the first ever Formula 1 Night Race - n it was done on the streets!

So they closed of lots of streets n made it into an awesome possum challenging course! n we stayed right next to it n u cud see the track and cars, let alone the whole city cud hear the FRIGGIN SCREECHING ENGINES that I LOVE!!!! oh crap the loudness was.. ear drum blowing! haha seriously, watchin races on tv, i know its loud, but nothin cud ever prepare me for how loud it REALLY is. its such a screech tat ur ears hurt n u have to use EarPlugs, oh but I loved it soooo much!! felt so real u know?

IT was such a dream for me to finally go for a F1 race! I mean all these years when they host in in Sepang, its still expensive but this time, the tickets were all sponsored and so were the hotel. So a big thanks to my uncle!! :D

The place was packed with lots of rich rich foreigners who obv have lots of time n money to follow these races ahhh but it was fun!

Day 1 - Qualifying Sessions.
We had Stamford Grandstand Tickets n they were pretty sweet, so had fun watchin all the cars zoom n the occasional slip into the side as they lost control of the car. nuthn major tho, they just spun out to a lane. Massa of Ferrari made pole position! :)

oh n Pa insisted on buying me a Ferrari t-shirt!
I Resisted coz it was waayy too expensive, but he bought it anyway! $120 for original, but its so nice!! :)

Day 2 - Historic Race Day!
in the afternoon, went around Orchard Road with Periama shopping, well moer of like browsing. i actually dont like shoppin in Singapore, its too expensive, i can get the exact same from home or Bangkok for 1/3 the price. anyhow did manage to buy 1red clutch, and GLADIATOR wedges!! ahhhhh!!!!


there were tons there but had to resist, as i addy have 3 pairs of flat glads, but there were so many high ones and high heeled! so found this awesome pair n it was $30, so decided to treat myself! they're soo hot!!


ok now Race Day- got awesome seats too! Turn2-3 Grandstands!!! how awesome man, we're at the turn right after the grid, so get alot of action, oh n there r big screen projection tvs there, so u watch the tv coverage as well as the live thing happenin! :)

the atmosphere was so fun! ppl all cheerin n happy! we all gasped and laughed and all at the action. read papers for coverage im too tired. but basically lots of drama- it was AWESOME! n Alonso won! good on him!!


n also we got to go on the track after tat! so took pics of rubber and the pits and Heikki Kovalainen! lol!

all in all it was such a dream come true and great weekend! not postin much pics here, but its on my Facebook. so heres the link: CLICK ME!

Taaa im tired!!

*BUNNY*

Way Tired

ugh im feeling so lethargic now.. been havin long days recently and feelin kinda sick- back aches, headaches, u name it. went out to Euphoria last night n it was...............

Stellar.

Patrick played more house, but it was really good, say it was a great way to unwind last nite! :)

also Uncle Roydon & Hem Achi from New Zealand (Hannah's parents) came down last night. they're chaperonin a high school trip to Vietnam so they'll be there from today till the 9th. Then Hem achi will be spendin almost 2 weeks with us, I think...

It was so so good to see them! Haven't seen them since... 05 or 06.. n actually Hannah was supposed to be on this trip too.. :( but it was good to see them la.. Uncle Roydon is fun as usual, but you can really just see how sad they are la.. I can see in their eyes that they miss her constantly.. was sad la...

Like, I'd catch Uncle sometimes lookin at me, n then lookin away with this look on this face, n I cud tell tat he was missing her n wishin she was here.. I do too........ darn.. we used to have soo much fun together...

N I miss Caleb too! wish he cud have come down, but think he had classes.. He's always full of his crazy jokes- haha! :) oh well, maybe a trip to New Zealand for Christmas or in January might happen..

we'll see! :)

*BUNNY*

Memory Lane

*Bath Time*

So i was going thru all of my old old OLD photo albums! the ones when i was born and thru out my toddler years n wit my fam n all tat!

some of them r just oh so cute! i dont have a scanner so i cudnt resist taking pics of them! :) here's a lil treat for Kris n fam! :)

*I think i just arranged the dolls n tried to be one!*

*LOVE this! :)*

*Kris, me, amachi & Hannah*

*Caleb, Kris, me & Uncle Roydon*

*at the zoo! i actually remember this!**oh so busy busy on the phone! lol!*

*with the golf stick!*

:)

*BUNNY*

Bangkok Pilgrimage!

So im back! Back from Bangkok! Back from a shopping spree for 4 days n also a lot of GREAT Thai food! yum! :)

i had a whale of a time, as usual! Stayed at the Grand Diamond Hotel in Pratunam this time, n it was pretty nice! the location tho, was great! it was right next to a new mall tat we discovered, called Platinum Fashion Mall n its a mall for wholesalers, but u can still buy single pieces! so I shopped wit my mum n aunty, The whole day!!

bargained n bargained n enjoyed the Thai accent (as usual!) n got aload of good stuff for really really cheap! tats why i LOVE bangkok! :) ahh it def was good to be back in Thailand! n dont worry there were no protestors where we were, tat only happens at the embassy area.. so we were all real safe..

n all of us stuffed ourselves silly wit Swensen's ice cream as it was real cheap n TON n TONS of great Thai food! i love Tom Yum Kung- n we had it for almost every meal n my uncle said that if he were to have some more, hed have it comin out of his ears! lol!

oh n we also hit MBK Mall- it was good as usual, but i think my fav place to shop now is Platinum! also went to Erawan and Chatuchak weekend market! ohhhh that place was C-R-O-W-D-E-D!!!!!!!!!!!! super packed n HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!!!!!! but the great thing about it is the fact tat stuff there is super super cheap!! n as long as i had my good cool coconut juice in my hand, i was alive! lol!

oh! n great news! i managed to stumble upon a Charles & Keith clearance sale in a mall (genuine Charles & Keith!!!!!!) n guess wat? it was freakin 70% off! i bought a FAB pair of sexy black heels for only RM55.50!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH!!! super happy!

other than that, we mostly went around for food n did go up to the Sky Bar in Baiyoke

Sky (tallest building in Bangkok) which was on the 83rd floor! so we got a beautiful view of Bangkok at night! :)

all in all, it was a fab trip n i had a great time!

i bought: 7 dresses, 6 tops, 5 panties, 5 earrings, 3 necklaces, 3 shorts, 2 rings, 2 shoes, 2 belts, 1 jeans, 1 pants, 1 bra, 1 skirt, 1 bag & 1 headband! :)

:) Mal also had a great time in Manila, from what i heard! he won US$500!!! :) guess ill be gettin a good Christmas gift! lol!

*BUNNY*

Sawasdeeeeeee

Hmm i havent been updating lately, guess i've been busy wit assignments and Grey's Anatomy (again!) lol! cant ever get sick of it!

well classes were cool so far, im lookin forward to next Wednesday as we need to go on a Site Visit for my Retailing class! hahahha guess where it is? PAVILLION! hahahaha this is awesome! so as a class 'work' were supposed to go there n meet up, then get into groups n go into stores n see how they designed their shop, their retail concept, ceiling, lighting, music, etc la! haha for 3 hours min n take pics n notes! lol! our assignment is to go to a mall! LOL! i love this class! :)

nuthin much has been happenin this week i guess, its been rather quiet.. BUT!!!

ill be going to Bangkok, Thailand for the weekend!! woots!!! tomoro im leavin n gettin back on Monday! haha its like.. the 4th time in Bangkok n were going shoppinggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO EXCITEDDD!!

bringing a rather empty suitcase! :) n i thought tat its definately time to practice my Thai accent! lol! so ill be catchin ya lovelies sooN! oh n Icky will be flying to Manilla, Phillipines tomoro as well for a Magic:The Gathering tournament! GOod luck babes n buy me sumn! love ya!!

*BUNNY*

My Love, My Life

I know one day there will come a time,
Different beliefs would draw the line,
But rest assured we'll both be fine,
You'll have your heaven I'll have mine,

Although it feels we're not allowed,
Just know that love's what it's about,
We'll work it out, I say it proud,
You are my soulmate, there's no doubt,

Can't see my life without you babe,
Can't remember life before your name,
Can't let you go when you feel the same,
I fear my mind would go insane,

Let's not just leave, baby let's stay,
Why let this love pass through our way?
I don't wanna look back and say,
What if you were my wife today...

Although you say with me you're through,
You're done with calling me your boo,
Just know that one thing will stay true,
Love of my life will always be you...

-Icky

He wrote this for me last year, while things were rocky between us... I guess lookin back on it made me cry and realize how much he truly loves me, and how much i truly love him... He's the sweetest! :)

Yesterday, the 21st indicated that Hannah has been gone for 1 month addy.. its hard to believe how fast time flies by. And i guess I've also been thinkin alot bout how we never know when our time is over....

We never really know whether we have just a few more days left, or months or years.. life is just way too unpredictable and short! Hannah's life had just only begun n yet she was taken away, makes me think alot about all the stuff tat i've accomplished/want to accomplish in my life.

You know, my family has never once, in the 3 years & 3 months of our relationship, ever liked the fact that im with Icky! the reason: because he's Malay. yes. my family is just like tat n that makes me so sad. The best part is they have been trying soo incredibly hard to break us up, they dont allow us to go out n they pray for us not to be together. And they say that they'll disown if i ever marry him! tats incredibly messed up.

They say tat they know tat "it wont work out n tat they dont want me gettin to serious, n that im still so young , oh! they dont want me to convert to a Muslim". Fine. i get it la, to be honest i completely understand why they are so worried, i understand, but wat i dont get is the fact tat they just cant realize that I AM HAPPY!

I am! n if they r so sure tat it will never work out then why r they so worried, just leave it be la, kan? I wish for once that they would just stop being selfish and start thinkin about how I feel, how Im taking this. I've finally found a GREAT guy who just loves me and worships me for me, and i do the same for him. He keeps me safe, he treats me right, he tells me when i've done wrong, he never fails to correct me, he advices me, he helps me, he makes sure that i dont get sucked into a hell-hole of smoking and drugs. He keeps ME SAFE. without him in my life right now, honest to blog, id be some shit-headed alcoholic pot smoking slut. i would. but i am NONE of those things, not even close, bcoz of this guy who protects me and wants wats good for me.

The zany thing is that my family has NEVER ONCE taken the time to meet him and get to know him, they have never invited him over for lunches or wtv the way they did to my cousin's Indian bf. Honestly, i tell you right now, if they had gotten to know him and like had him over for 6 months or 1 year, and by then if they STILL didnt like him, then id listen to what they were saying and i'd end it. BUT HOW DO THEY EXPECT ME TO DO SO WHEN THEY WONT EVEN TAKE THE INITIATIVE TO GET TO KNOW HIM??? how can i listen to a word they say?

i love my family, i've always admitted it, but i stand here today, 19 years of age and sadly admit that my own flesh and blood do not even know who I am. They say that im stubborn, n darn right i am! im one stubborn girl, since a toddler, every1 will say, I've always had to do things my way even tho ppl told me not to and I always learnt it BY MYSELF. if i made a mistake, i learnt it. but wit me is tat ive always been that spirit who just needs to do something so tat no matter what they consequences were, i can look back being proud of the fact that I HAD THE GUTS TO TAKE THAT RISK. n they shud also know by now that when it comes to me; the harder they try to pull away, the harder i'll cling on to.

Like i said before, i dunno whats gonna happen wit me n Mal, u can never plan these things. what life has in store for us, i dunno, maybe we'll break up soon, maybe in years or maybe never. I DONT KNOW!!!

all i do know is this: I have one life. And i dunno when it will be my time, but all i know is that im living it for me and I. AM. HAPPY! Im so happy to be with him, why be miserable when i can just be happy?? I know they love me, but if they really want to do wats right, they'd be happy for me and just accept it.

tats all i ask for. this is my life, please let me make my decisions, you can advice me but ultimately, please let me feel the joys or pain of the decisions i make. Know that I am capable of celebrating all my life's happiness and even more capable of cutting myself and letting it heal. One Life. One Chance. Thats It.

*Kelsey Brown*