Monday, June 9, 2008


....was a sad day.... For me n for my family...... It started from yesterday but sank in this mornin, for me anyway... Found out my cousin Hannah who has a brain tumor is just not doing well at all.... she has very little time left.......... :'(

all this while i knew wat she was goin thru n prayed just as hard for her.. but i was never really able to cry, i only did once when we found out tat it was cancer but from then i was just sad to hear bad news n just prayed, but it just never sunk in, u know wat i mean?
i guess i just somehow hoped tat it wud just go away, tat she'll be fine.. n i was hopeful! but this mornin my dad said tat my grandparents, my aunts n uncle n a cousin n himself r goin to New Zealand tomoro to see her as she just might not make it.................... i cant go.... i hve finals.......... n it was in class this mornin as i msged Kris, tat it finally sank in.. we're losing her.................

i just cudnt hold it in any longer n started crying.... i just cant believe it u know? i find it so hard, this was one of those things tat i always heard bout happenin but just never thought would happen to our family.. to us.. but it is.. n im just sad.. :'(

im not givin up on prayers for miracles and God's work but im also prayin tat God just takes away her pain as she is in alot of it rite now... poor thing, i miss her too.. i havent seen her in since 05 n they were supposed to come down in Xmas 07.. sigh...

im holdin on to the song 'Blessed Be Your Name' for now, as i always have.. it gives me strength thru these hard times... n Kris darlin,(n any other family members) i hope u find strength in this song too..

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in,
LordStill I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

'Dear Hannah, i dont really know wat to say, but all i can say is tat i miss you so much n i love you.. we had great times together n ill always remember them! i know u can make it thru this, i believe in you, but i want you to be ok.. to be alright, ill always love you Babu.. :)'

*Hannah's Raji*


mello said...

she's sooo lawa <3 and i'm sorry i wasn't there for you . i wish i could've wiped the tears for you like how you did for me but i will see you later ( at uni ) and i will give you a BIG biiiig fat hug . stay strong my love . ultimately , whatever happens it will be for the best . loveyouu .

Kelsey Bunny said...

yup i guess... thanks hun! hope u make good decisions in ur life too, u know wat im talkin bout! ;p love ya!!